May 30, 2003

Log excerpt--again

I know. Y'all are gonna think this is all I ever do, right? Well okay, so right now that's not far from the truth. I keep meaning to post and fill everyone in on the crap that is my real life right now, but I just don't have the heart. So instead, you get more MUSH logs.

This scene was fun. A lot of fun. Set about four or five months before this scene, my partner in crime, , and I wanted to build on this pose from the first log:

Is it an unlikely moment? Is it really? Has he ever seen her strip so casually in front of anyone else? If anyone else is around? Has anyone else gotten the same teasing displays of flesh, the same mischievous grins, like a child pushing her limits to see what she can get away with? In truth, she's been pushing and pushing him towards this, ever since...

New Orleans. Ever since New Orleans. A walk in the summer-sultry French Quarter, because she was bored and he wouldn't let her go alone, a walk where he actually talked about himself, letting down the bodyguard mask for just an hour or so. So. Since New Orleans.

And what a turning point it turned out to be. I have to admit, as much as I adore all the RP I'm doing right now, this particular bit gives me a lot of the same rush that novel-writing does. So, two excerpts from the conversation in New Orleans.

The two of them are a study in opposites in nearly every respect. She's dressed as casual as casual gets, and he looks exactly like what he is: a hired thug in an expensive suit and mirrored sunglasses. She finds life and vitality in New Orleans, but he finds exactly the opposite, for many reasons. He wants to relax, but it's just not an option.

"Maybe they ain't," he allows, shouldering past someone who gets a little too close for his liking. "But you pay me to think otherwise, an' the first person comes wavin a cross at you is gonna get it shoved up their ass sideways." Something's clearly wrong. Karl is often gruff, but rarely rude, and even at concerts he's not this edgy. And whether he realizes it or not, he's determined to be passive-aggressive as hell about it.

Samantha's a smart girl. She's been around him long enough to know what he's like, even when he's at his most alert, his most poised. And she knows that a city street, even this one, even now, isn't call for this sort of sharpness, this sort of attitude. She studies him for a long, long time, perhaps gauging the best way to approach him, or even if she should approach him about it at all.

Watching him shoulder through the crowd makes up her mind. "Hey, I dunno if the tour's liability insurance is gonna cover it if you break someone outside of the concert hall." Her words are light, but she follows them up with ones that are a little more serious. "Everything okay?"

The words bring Karl up short, and this, thankfully, keeps him from stepping in the steaming exhaust from one of the horse-drawn carriages. He carefully takes a step back, onto the curb, and turns to look at Sam, a kind of thoughtful evaluation in his gaze that has nothing at all to do with protecting her.

It's not a staring contest, but it could be mistaken for one; it goes on for a good minute. Several times he opens his mouth as if to say something, and shuts it again, dissatisfied with the words about to come out of his mouth. Finally, gesturing as if to assist himself in figuring out what he wants to express, he says, bluntly, "This city is dying. Can't you feel it? It's a rotting corpse someone's forgotten to bury."

Placid eyes, calmer than he's used to seeing them, not crackling with stage-energy, not flashing with impassioned anger, just... calm, brown-green like river water, simply watching his face, watching him come to a decision. It's clear that his words surprise her, drawing that arched eyebrow once again. "Dying? Parts of it, sure. All cities go through cycles, really. New Orleans, I think, tends to celebrate its deaths a little more, recognizes the passings... mourns, then rebuilds."

She pauses, motioning off the street a bit, an open patio of sorts tucked back under ancient elm trees, offering a little bit of respite from the hazy sun. Starting in that direction, knowing he'll follow, she comments, "I didn't know you'd ever been here before."

"I haven't," he replies, dutifully following in her footsteps, finding a bench for them. Mildly annoyed at the fact that there's no wall he can put their backs to, no single entrance he can face, he resigns himself to doing a lot of head-turning.

His accent is noticeably lessened. Not quite absent, but it could be missed.
"New Orleans is a fuckin pit," he begins, with the verbal momentum of a rant that's been building up for a good long time. "The estuarine ecosystem is irreparably devastated by silt dredging and urbanization, the sea level is rising at an average rate of point eight meters a year, an' biological diversity is down somethin like fifty percent. Saltwater intrusion is killing off the freshwater species in the Pontchartrain Basin, and the levees are worse than the problem they're supposed to correct." All this comes out in one breath, as if he were taking a great dump of all the crap that's been building. "This city," he says, very clearly now, "is a piece of shit, and it's going to be underwater in fifty years. All this life and celebration you see around you," he utters with a dismissive wave at the streets, "is a coping mechanism to deal with the fact that everyone in New Orleans knows they're fucked."

If he had grown a second head that started spouting Esperanto, she could have hardly been less surprised. Would have been less surprised, in fact. She's seen two-headed Esperanto-spouting creatures before. The less said about that the better. She regards him for a long moment. It's not that she doesn't understand what he just said, it's that /he/ said it. That alone means she needs a moment to recoup. Miss All Up In Arms about environmental issues missed something. "I didn't know that," she admits, and it /costs/ her to admit that. Not because he apparently knows something she doesn't, but because she honestly loves this city. It's like being told that an old family friend has cancer.

Oddly, appropriately, a woman on the edge of the small plaza, a street musician, sets up and starts singing, her voice rich and soulful, "Sometimes I feel like I'm almost gone... sometimes I feel like I'm almost gone... A long, long way from home..."
The gospel riff sends a shiver up Samantha's spine, her hands rubbing her arms as if a goose walked over her grave.

The candid admission is disarming, and it takes a lot of the wind out of his bellows. He's silent for a time, listening to the haunting music, which greets his ears like a funeral dirge. He doesn't quite look at Samantha, instead looking around him with eyes that are no longer cataloguing threats and assessing dangers. Instead, they're pinpointing guilt for the spots of disease on the elms, wondering how many heavy metals and waste are sitting in the pools of water on the cobblestone streets, waiting to be washed into the delta with the rain runoff. "When you hired me, I told you I had a college degree. I didn't tell you it was a Masters in Environmental Engineering. I was workin on my thesis when they passed a whole bunch of shit legislation here in the late nineties, and it was big news in class. It's all about reclamation and restoration, finally owning up to the fact that we've spent the last two hundred years fucking this place up. Except that some pencilnecks got the arrogance to think they can turn back the clock and stop the river and the sea from eating this city alive. They can't."

His hands flex on his lap, strong hands that are powerless to do anything at all about the subject at hand. It's not a comfortable feeling for anyone, least of all him, and he shifts uneasily on the wrought iron bench, as if he could set himself at ease by making his ass stop hurting. "The heat sucks. It stinks to high heaven, an' if I never hear another word of French spoken in my life, it'll be too soon. But you wanna know the real reason I hate this city? That's it in a nutshell."

Samantha knows that feeling though, that helplessness. Her hands may not be powerful weapons, but they flex that exact same way whenever she considers the social injustice that still constantly raises its head in this, the supposedly most civilized of nations.

For that one moment, she looks at him, really looks at him, and in a very real way she sees part of herself looking back at her.
It shakes her a bit. Hell, a lot. Shakes her so much that she looks away, watching the musician on the corner. The woman's /good/. After a moment's consideration--and to give herself time to think, she slips away from the bench, dropping a folded bill in the woman's hat. She hands the woman a card and murmurs something to her, all in the space of a few seconds, and comes back to sit beside him again.
It's another thing about her that drives everyone batshit. She can't pass a beggar on the street without giving him or her something. Can't. It's a compulsion with her, no matter how many stories she hears about scams.

The thunder catches her attention for a second as well, before she flashes him a grin. "I see. So a suit only keeps you from changing disposable diapers? What about cloth ones?" She raises her hand, "Wait, don't tell me. Polluting the ground water with the run off it takes to launder them, not to mention the electricity and detergents in the water..." Okay, so she's ribbing him. A little. It's just nice to find out that she's not the only one with weird little fixations and obsessions.

Another rumble of thunder, hazel eyes going to the sky again. She sighs, a little reluctantly. "If you really mind getting rained on, you better say something now."

She is indeed teasing, and he's not going to rise to the bait this time. Instead he considers her offer. It's not really even an offer; they'd have to find someplace to duck into to get out of the rain, and it'll be here before they could walk back to the hotel. And as if on cue to his thoughts, the rain arrives like a crescendo, announcing its presence with the kind of suddenness only a Southern summer storm can. Raindrops the size of gumballs, it seems, in sheets that cut visibility to a few dozen feet.

The mirrored sunglasses are impenetrable at the best of times, but now he can't see out of them either. With dignity and grace that borders on the comical, the rain slicking his hair to his head and making his suit cling to him like a frightened child, he slowly removes the sunglasses and folds them up, tucking them into the breast pocket of his jacket. "Fuck it," he declares with exaggerated eloquence.

Samantha's laugh is bright, almost child-like, sounding for all the world like a kid who's just been told that recess is going to be fifteen minutes longer. She has no dignity to speak of, or at least, none that she ever really worries about. As the rain pounds down between the elm trees, she leaps up from the bench, impulsive, as sudden as the arrival of the storm itself. Arms outstretched, her face turned into the torrent, she spins in a circle, laughing as the rain soaks through the rainbow of her hair, soaking the light summer clothes and molding them to her.

The city may be dying, but she is /alive/, and each raindrop that trickles down her skin is a reminder of that, a tangible gift reminds her that the world is still, by and large, a vital, vibrant place.

There is power in rain, Karl knows, and life. Destructive as the forces of erosion may be, they are still a part of the cycle, and for any toxic by-products the fault lies not with the rain, but with the men who put the toxins in its path. Watching Samantha's rain dance, it occurs to him, and not for the first time, that she really is a force of nature. She is primal in some way, and she exhales life the way a tree exhales oxygen.

She's a frustrating, infuriating bitch, and he feels more alive around her than at any other time.
It's an unsettling realization, that, and he doesn't let himself think too deeply on it. There's a part of him that wants to get up and feel the rain with her, to let it fill him instead of falling on him, but he doesn't. He can't. Instead, he watches her, an audience of one for the greatest performance of her life.
That, and he needs to make sure a crocodile doesn't swim up and bite her leg off. The water's already up to his ankles.

It's not so different from the way she dances onstage, really. There's nothing planned to it, very little training. Hell, in this case, the only music is the hiss of the rain, the occasional percussion of thunder. The old chestnut about dancing like nobody's watching applies here. Her movements punctuated by laughter, as the worst of the cloudburst passes, slowing to drizzles, she finally comes back to the bench, collapsing, panting but invigorated. The smile on her face is damn near post-coital, satisified and relaxed.

It's a reaction he's seen before. The simplest sensory experiences, a rainstorm, a particularly tasty meal, a song... all can sometimes just grab her and shake her hard, leaving her open and aching for more. Watching you she suddenly laughs, oddly self-conscious. "I'll bet you think I'm a freak, don't you?"

Karl looks like a drowned rat, and he wasn't even the one dancing. No, not a rat--maybe a wombat, or a badger, or something equally nasty. The stoic way he holds himself, back straight, is really unsuited to how drenched he is, tongues of black hair licking at his forehead and chin dripping. He smiles for a moment, a rare ray of sunlight from him, and replies, "I ain't gotta answer that, do I?" The words are flippant, but there is no judgment behind the pale gray of his eyes.

In another impulsive movement, she reaches up and catches the hair on his forehead under her fingers, pushing it back with a decisive motion so it doesn't drip into his face. It isn't a particular gentle touch, just an automatic, unthinking response to visual stimuli. It's also the first thing she's ever touched him in some manner that wasn't strictly business-related.

"What would you do if I said yes?" she grins cheekily. If her own behavior throws her at all, she doesn't show it--but then, she's not one for a lot of self-analysis, especially not when she's in a mood like this.

There passes, at that moment, a charge between them that rivals the natural light show nature put on for them just minutes before. Karl knows it, and he knows she knows it. It causes him to freeze rigidly for the space of a few heartbeats as expression slips away from his face, as he wonders what the fuck just happened.

Any number of answers come to mind, ranging from the evasive to the flippant. He discards them one by one, like a man fishing through a trunk for some forgotten toy, casting all the others aside in a single-minded search for the truth. /I'd tell you I'm falling for you. And then eat a bullet for being the stupidest fuckin fuck ever./
"I'd tell you," he says slowly, "that you're impossible. And that maybe I'm starting to get why your fans like that noise you make."

I know. I needed another set of characters to fixate on like I need another hole in my head. But... they're just so COOL!

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