Divisions and Precisions

Much better now

After a day's worth of relatively rational reflection, and after a day that was fairly easily divided between job hunting and writing, I'm much calmer than I was yesterday. I'm still a little worried about managing to get a job, and then managing to keep a job, but I'm not in a panic anymore.

This summer has been a gift, an enormous gift. Proving to myself that I can find and keep a job, even a part time one (which, to be honest, is what I'm looking for right now), will also be a gift. I reaffirmed that I do, definitely, more than anything, want to spend my life doing exactly what I've done for the past two months. But until I can do that, I have to do something that brings money in. When (when, damn it, not if but when) I manage to sell a book, then I can take a look at things again, and see how I am financially.

So in short, better now. Saner.