March 21, 2000
Spring Fever
I should be working. I mean, I really should be working. I've got a project due at the end of this week. I may end up taking some of it home. But... it's spring! I don't care if it snowed yesterday here, it's still spring. I'm restless and fidgety (okay, some of that may be sleep dep and caffeine). I'm mood-swinging, but not in that odd, unsettling way I was a month or so ago. This is more... melodramatic? I think that's the word I'm looking for. The highs have been... stratospheric. Even the lows have been cathartic, if nothing else.More resolution in various old issues, leaving me feeling even closer to the people involved than I was before. This makes me happy. It makes me happy, and it leaves me feeling far more hopeful about the future. Honest translation with all vague bullshit aside? I've gained some more acceptance where Brand and Mo are concerned. This can only be a good thing. In fact, thanks to the wonders of ICQ, Mo and I have been talking -- like, real voice to voice talking. She's just damn cool, that's all there is to it.
Self-review time at work. I hate doing self-reviews. With a passion. I can be honest on all the quantifiable stuff, no problem. I'm about at 'meets job expectations' on everything, and I way exceed things like job knowledge and so on. But. There's this:
List 1 to 3 goals/objectives you would like to attain before the next review. Indicate preparation and training necessary to attain these goals and projected completion date. Goals must be realistic and reasonably accomplished. Your individual goals must be consistent with Department and [company] goals. The goals should be performance oriented and quantifiable where possible.What goals? My goal used to be, essentially: 'To not be a receptionist here anymore'. I wanted to go to another department, and got doors slammed in my face. So now I'm content to stay here in support reception, doing my own thing for the most part.
I hate like hell to break it to them, but... my individual goals don't have jack shit to do with Department or company goals. So... I need to try and find a way to BS my way through this. Part of me is soooo tempted to be honest though. If I didn't think I'd end up getting my butt booted out the door, I'd do it.
Annnnnd... I'm going to Oklahoma in three days. Oof. I can't even type that without getting butterflies in my stomach. Meeting people from online is always interesting. Meeting people from online that you've been talking to for literally years is even more so. Two years, to be exact. I have no idea what to expect. As shy as we both seem to get around each other, we were half-joking about needing to find a pair of computers in order to be able to talk to each other. (Hey, it's a gaming convention, that's a possibility.)
But, I'm taking my camera with me. And I may even have time to write an entry or two during my trip.
Spring is in the air... and I can't sit still...
Posted by Lisa at March 21, 2000 02:08 PM
