February 10, 2000
Twitchy
Not the greatest of days today. I'm sorta upset at someone, and I haven't been able to talk to them about it yet. I hate that. Because I stew. I sit here and get more and more irritated. Working on not doing that. Working really really hard.I'm also a little worried today. I woke up with tingling hands (especially my right one). That, in and of itself, isn't terribly unusual. It happens from time to time. Today it's really bad. My pinky and ring finger are tingling, my wrist and arm and shoulder hurt, and -- what bothers me the most -- my thumb and forefinger keep twitching. The twitch is originating somewhere up in my wrist and forearm, I can feel it. And it only does it when my hands are at rest.
I'm going to the doctor tomorrow morning. Frankly, I'm scared. As much as I type, what else could it be, but carpal tunnel or some other repetitive stress injury? I use an ergonomic keyboard, but I admit, my posture's pretty sucky, especially at home. To quote a friend of mine, "I don't have an ergonomic body." And it's true. I can't use a keyboard tray here at work because my tummy gets in the way and that leaves the monitor so far away that I can't see it.
Just at a guess, I'm thinking the mouse is aggravating this worse than the keyboard. My super-scientific reasoning? Using the mouse hurts worse than typing does.
If it is CRT, what am I going to do? Aside from work, so much of my communication depends on this little piece of plastic and circuitry under my fingertips. Sure, I could use voice-recognition software or some such, but.. it's not the same. Not at all. The thought processes for typing versus writing versus speaking are so very different. I don't write as well if I'm not typing. Typing on a computer, specifically. It's as if I have more freedom then. When you write, or type on paper, the words are solid. They're there. You can change them, sure, but the record of what they were stays there.
That inhibits me. I feel as if the words need to be perfect before they go onto paper. or at the very least, finished. On a screen, the feeling is very different. Words on a screen are ephemeral. If I don't like a word or phrase or paragraph... I can delete them, and it's as if they never existed. Less pressure that way. No one will see my mistakes, not even me.
And I really should stop typing now. Pain reliever is only going to go so far. Feh. I have a picture or two I've been wanting to post as well. Hopefully when I get home.
Posted by Lisa at February 10, 2000 02:18 PM
