July 29, 2000
Change of Plans
Well, as evidenced by the fact that I'm sitting here writing this, I didn't get to go to the LARP tonight. I'm pissed. I got up this morning and ran out to do some errands. On the way home, my car started making some weird noises. So I thought maybe I could get it checked out before I started on the trip, as I was going to be driving four or five hours. No dice.
So after calling around, I decided to be safe rather than sorry, and stayed home. I've driven the car around town today, and it's still making the noise, but it seems okay. I hate this. I feel like I did the 'responsible' thing, but at the same time, I think I was being over-cautious. I feel like I was very stodgy about the whole thing, but honestly, I don't have enough extra money lying around for a big emergency expense. Well no. That's not completely accurate. I do have some extra money lying around, and I'd hate like hell to have another setback that would eat up the extra and put me in the hole again. Maybe that is stodgy of me.
But on the other hand, a stodgy person wouldn't have bought what I did last night. Yes, that's a dress in that picture. Yes, it's leopard print. As I've told several people, it breaks every single fashion rule I have. It's sleeveless. (I hate my upper arms, usually.) It clings. (I mean, really clings.) It's... well... leopard print! But as soon as I put it on, I had to have it. My first thought was it would make a great costume, but I'm starting to see other possibilities as well. Doesn't every self-respecting single girl need at least one good 'trashy' dress?
Don't get me wrong. It's not utterly tasteless. It doesn't show any more of me than a very very modest bathing suit would. In fact, it shows less, because it's nearly floor-length. Even if the rest of the world thinks I look like a rhino in it, I like it. It's comfortable. It makes me feel just a little bit bad, and that's a good thing.
It also makes me feel defiant. Screw those people who think someone who's fat should only wear baggy clothes. What's the point in that? To hide the fact that they're fat? Wearing something baggy is not going to hide my size. All it does is hide the curves that are there, even if they are outsized and occasionally convex where modern fashion sense says they should be concave.
So, we'll see. I'm going to start looking for a chance to wear this thing.
Posted by Lisa at July 29, 2000 09:34 PM
