October 07, 1999
Changes
I don't know whether to laugh or cry. I called the movers to confirm the move for tomorrow, and found out that the truck they had signed me up for broke down. All their other trucks are spoken for for tomorrow morning. My options were to move tomorrow afternoon instead, or to move Monday morning. Tomorrow afternoon was when the utility companies were coming out, so I needed to be at the mobile home rather than here in my apartment watching movers load a truck. I tried to reschedule the utilities. No go.
So I'm moving Monday morning. It sort of sucks, because I have to miss part of the day from work to do it. But at the same time, that gives me some more time to pack, which is definitely not a bad thing. I feel less stressed about it. Tomorrow, however, I have to spend most of the day sitting in an empty house waiting for the utility companies. I think I'm going to take a book and my Playstation, along with some cleaning supplies and see what I can get done. I'm also going to take Maxie with me too. I'm curious to see how he'll react to this new empty house.
I'm going to be spending most of Saturday there as well, continuing to clean. So really, I just have one extra day to pack. And I've wasted most of this one on the phone, it seems. And doing a bit of goofing off, I admit. I'm sore from yesterday. My hips hurt, what the hell? I can't for the life of me figure that one out.
Man, I wish I could at least take a chair over there with me, but I don't have any furniture that would fit in the back of my Escort. And it's gonna be cold too. One of things I'm waiting for them to turn on is the heat. Ah well. When I was there yesterday, it wasn't that cold in the house, considering that the temperature has been dropping below freezing at night lately. It's sad but true. I had to scrape frost off my windshield this morning.
I've been thinking a lot about my feelings about fall. The 'down time', I think, fades once I actually get into the season. The same colors that triggered such an intense sadness in me the other day made me joyous yesterday. Of course, this year, the circumstances might have had a lot to do with it. Last week, when I was so down about the season, I was thinking in terms of the endings that fall always brings to me. This week has been all about new beginnings. The colors that made me so ecstatic yesterday were on the trees lining the road right before my new home. My life always seems to follow the cycles of the year, I think I wrote about that in Crossroads last spring.
In fact, last October is really when Hollingsworth and I 'broke up'. Halloween (or Samhain, as that seems more appropriate) he and I talked about where we each were going, and realized that it wasn't in the same direction, and agreed to see other people. Whether we knew it or not, that was pretty much the end of our relationship. This October is bringing the real, official, final ending to that. Still having mixed feelings, especially when he and I are getting along. I know the relationship's over. Don't get me wrong there. I don't want it back. There's just a sense of sadness again, that something that was once good is over.
But... what a new beginning I've got ahead of me. And the rest of the weekend to prepare for it. I'm off to do just that.
Funny, I remembered today that I started dating Gary ten years ago today. We were sitting in a swing at Lipscomb University when we decided to 'be official'. Silly seventeen year old me. And on the heels of that thought, I realized that it's James' birthday today. Kinda scary to think that while I was hooking up with my future ex-husband, he was... well, I don't want to think about how much older than him I am. Besides, he'd probably beat me for broadcasting his age. Anyway, happy birthday, James. :)
Posted by Lisa at October 7, 1999 01:00 PM
