September 06, 2000
General Bitching and Whining
Ugh. I was doing so well with this writing everyday thing. I admit, it's been a rough couple days, maybe weeks. I keep getting sick with some sort of bug. It doesn't do much aside from drain my energy and make me feel sort of flu-ish. Achy and tired and sluggish. That works to squish my mood down, which makes me feel even more tired and sluggish and bleah. Not conducive to lots of good writing.
Labor Day weekend was sort of a disappointment. I didn't get much done, mostly because I felt so awful. Add to that a bunch of guilt for not going to visit my mom like I said I was going to. And guilt for not getting my housework done. And general unhappiness due to plans falling through. You get the idea. Ah well. I'm going to see my mom tonight after work at least. That's something.
I'm also signed up for a short-term group therapy thing. We'll see. I was terribly unhappy with the therapist I was assigned at U of M, so I'm not seeing her anymore. I admit, I got discouraged and didn't try to find another one there. I mean, as guilty as I feel all of the time, I didn't need a therapist who made me practically squirm with guilt when I was with her. I know. I'm not being fair. I should probably practice what I preach, right KT? ;-)
I'm not back on Zoloft regularly. I don't know... it's stupid of me. I didn't like the way that got handled either, and the doctor insisted on putting me on a dosage that didn't work in the past. Didn't matter what I said about being on 150mg before, he insisted on putting me on 50mg. I mean, come on dude. Zoloft isn't exactly a controlled substance. I'm not going junkie on you, I just know what didn't work before. And so, feeling certain that it wouldn't work, I quit taking it. Also dumb of me. I'm being a stereotypical depressive here. Feh.
And by the way, whose bright idea was it for humans to require sleep? Jeez.
Posted by Lisa at September 6, 2000 02:47 PM
