December 13, 1999
Monday. Bleah.
I started a journal entry Friday, but it just didn't go anywhere. I did, however, write this:
I'm kicking myself, but I'm giddy. And I can't really tell myself that it's all sleep deprivation, either. For the past couple of days I've been giggly and silly. I have so many patterns that I follow, especially when someone catches my attention for some reason, and I'm staying true to my pattern now. I want to kick myself, because I know I'm acting like a twelve year old. In fact, last night I kept telling Brand to kick me. For all the good a 'virtual' kick did. I'm twenty-seven years old. I should not be reduced to giggles because someone I've never met called me cute.
I give up.
I also think I'm entering into winter hibernation mode. Usually on the weekends anymore all I want to do is curl up inside my house. That's also partly a response to things getting busy at work, too. Busy season used to start in January, but now apparently it's starting in December. Silly accountants.
Today I got email about a job opening here in my company. Whenever there's a new one, they post it internally via email first. I'm going to turn in my resume for it. Network Services Administrator. It's being described as largely administrative (which is a lot of what I do now) with a little bit of technical, with the opportunity to learn a lot more on the technical end of things. It sounds, if I want to stay in this company, right up my alley. And I have to admit, for an Evil Corporate Empire (tm), this one isn't that bad. So I dropped a note to my supervisor about it, and he was very encouraging. His response was, "It really sounds like a job you could definitely handle. At least you wouldn't answer phones huh?" And my thought was, "That's the point."
I hate doing my resume. I hate it. I don't sell myself well. Never have. But damn it, I can do this job. I'm still wavering on whether or not I want to, as it'll mean longer hours most likely, but I can't argue with the money, which I know will be higher. I mean, I'm not in trouble or anything financially, but more money and a potentially more interesting job is nothing to ignore.
Posted by Lisa at December 13, 1999 04:18 PM
