Divisions and Precisions

He Said, She Said.... and Then Some

Well I did it. I asked him to the Christmas party at work. He said if he didn't have something going on, he'd go. Woohoo for me. And if you're reading this and you don't know who he is, TOO BAD! Heh. I have to keep some secrets from the general populace.

I am not, however, going to overreact and make this entire situation into something more than what it is. I'm going to keep my hopes moderate and count on having a good time with a good friend. Period.

You. Stop snickering. I can hear you from here. Yes, you.

What's going on lately, though? I'm kinda flabbergasted by something Jo told me at work today. I just do NOT know how to take it. She related a conversation to me between her and a co-worker that I've had a very minor crush on since I started working there a year and a half ago. It went something like this:

(Jo and the aforementioned co-worker are walking down the hall from me. As soon as they get around corner, he looks at Jo almost secretively.)

Him: So... is Lisa still going out with that same guy?

Jo: I don't think so.

Him: (Interested expression) Really? You sure?

Jo: I think so, yeah.

Him: Hm. That's interesting.

How's a girl supposed to take something like that? Is he asking for himself? Is he asking for someone else? Is he just curious, what? And then there's another one, who always comes over and talks to me when things get quiet in the evenings. Tonight he even called first to see if my phones were busy, and to tell me he wanted to come see me. That might just be boredom though, I don't know.

Whatever the case, I feel rather in demand lately. There are worse ways to feel.


And then there are the online folk, who, although near and dear to my heart, are just too damn far away. I'm pretty much over the jealousy thing. I think. Well, no. I'm still jealous, but it's changed. Rather than being jealous of her, I'm more jealous of the fact that I hardly get to talk to him anymore, cause he's always with her, if that makes sense.

I miss Brand though. He's saved my sanity countless times over the past several weeks and I love him dearly for it. Funny... it still seems weird to miss someone I've never actually met. It's just one of those things you can't explain to someone who hasn't been there, and if they've been there, you don't have to explain. It's not so bad, you know, being part of a harem. It has its perks. Heh.


And then there's Hollingsworth. I don't know that I'm ready to talk about that one yet. We share an apartment still, but that's really about it. I miss what we had sometimes, but most of the time I think I'm ready to let it go, and let it be what it wants to be, which apparently is just friendship. Just friendship. I shouldn't put it like that. As if friendship were something to just settle for. It's not, and I know that. (Gee, for not being ready to talk, I said a lot, didn't I?)

I feel like I'm leaving my chrysalis. The only question is: