June 16, 2000
T.G.I.F., In a BIG Way
It has been one all-around hellacious week. Car problems, money problems, and my cat is still missing. The good news is several-fold. I'm taking the car to get fixed on Monday. My financial situation, while tremendously crappy in the short term, is taking a huge upward swing in the long term. And I'm going to the Humane Society tomorrow to see if they have Max.
And, well... besides that, one good thing did happen this week. This sorta makes up for a lot of badness. Scroll down to my name. Yes, it's my first real and true professional publication. Yes, I'm being paid for it and everything. No I won't tell you how much. *grin* I'm actually really excited about this. If it hadn't been such a crappy week overall, I'd probably be bouncing off the walls. I'm now officially published!
I'm dealing with a lot of guilt as well right now, to be honest. For all practical intents and purposes, I'm borrowing a rather large sum of money from my parents, to bail me out of my financial mess. I hate it. It is not a good feeling. I feel like I should be past this, at nearly 28 years old. Admittedly, I haven't been here in a long time, but... it still sucks. I'm grateful, don't get me wrong. I'm immensely fortunate to have my mom. I just feel awful about it, that's all.
I suppose I can start focusing on the more positive aspects of my life right now. My writing career now actually exists and seems to be doing well so far. I have a wonderful relationship with my family. I have great friends who love me and who I love. I'm not on the street. I'm not starving. I have a decent job.
And if nothing else, it's Friday.