December 31, 2002
A Tale of Two Memes
Five things that 2002 taught me:
*There is a God, and he's gotta be looking out for me. (Not entirely facetious on this one.)
*I can, eventually, survive without a full-time job.
*I am not too old to develop crushes.
*I am good enough to get published outside of RPGs.
*I am not cut out for corporate America.
Five personally significant events of 2002:
*I started back to college full-time after going part time for a year and a half.
*I lost one job, gained another one, in many ways better, despite being part-time.
*Two words: Pooka. Rumpus.
*I sold my first short story.
*I finished my first novel, started outlining a second, started writing a third.
Five things I want to do in 2003:
*Get a working, submittable draft of one of my novels, damn it.
*Settle into this work/school routine.
*Do some real decorating at home.
*Start exercising on a regular basis.
Five things I don't want to do in 2003:
*Be unemployed again.
*Deal with another stupid gen ed requirement (although I'm gonna have to).
*Repeat the stupid drama of years past.
*Deal with reality TV.
*Wait until December for "Return of the King".
Five people who I'd like to know better in 2003:
7 things that make you laugh
1) My cats
2) "South Park"
3) General Write Club zanyness
4) Justin stories
5) "Whose Line is it Anyway?" (both versions)
6) Bad TV movies (like the one I'm watching right now)
7) "I'll be in my bunk."
7 things you love
1) My family
2) My friends
3) My cats (shut up)
7 things you hate
3) Low self-esteem
4) Parking on campus
5) Deliberate ignorance
7 things on your computer desk
5) Water bottle
6) Answering machine
7 facts about you
1) I am 5'7".
2) I share a birthday with one of my best friends.
3) I have been overweight since I was five years old.
4) I have publication credits in four Dream Pod 9 books, and have published two short stories.
5) I dream in color, and often very vividly.
6) I'm an utter slob.
7) I almost never wear makeup or shave. (Combination of laziness and feminism.)
7 things you can do
3) Learn insanely fast
4) Transpose sheet music
5) Sleep prodigiously
6) Use words like prodigiously and vociferous in regular conversation
7) Impress movie theatre staff with #6
7 things you can't do
1) Play a musical instrument
2) Fit into most standard restaurant booths
3) Lie to my mom
4) Keep up with my laundry
5) Keep house plants alive
6) Ice skate
7) Play basketball
7 famous people you want to meet (I chose to add "living"as well)
1) Stephen King
2) Toni Morrison
3) Peter Jackson
4) Just about any cast member from LOTR
5) Just about any cast member from "Firefly"
6) Kenneth Branagh
7) Catherine Zeta Jones
Top 7 things you say the most
4) Shit (I just tend not to say it around people)
5) Fuck (Ditto)
6) Bite me
Top 7 bands/artists you love
1) Sarah McLachlan
2) Tannahill Weavers
3) Sweet Honey in the Rock
4) Indigo Girls
5) Loreena McKennitt
6) Tori Amos
7) Sisters of Mercy
7 things you want to learn
1) More about philosophy
2) Better web design (Flash maybe?)
3) Literary theory
4) Database design
6) How to braid my own hair
7 foods/drinks you have all the time
2) Vanilla Coke
4) Orange juice
5) Green pepper and onion (these two things tend to show up in a lot of my cooking)
7 random thoughts
1) I'm up way way way too late.
2) I am the epitome of unmotivated genius. Is it any wonder I'm always attracted to it?
3) This movie is really dumb.
4) I hope "Firefly" gets picked up by UPN.
5) I need to stop obsessing over that show
6) Really need to go to bed now
7) Errand running tomorrow. Really.
December 30, 2002
In keeping with my last post...
Watching Buffy, and died laughing when Buffy said, "No offense, but I've met a lot of pimply vampires who called themselves Lestat." Funny, funny.
I think I'm running a contest to see how much time I can spend curled up in bed reading. Currently, reading Blackwood Farm, the first Anne Rice book I've picked up in years. I got it by mistake from the Science Fiction Book Club. Given her tendency to reference other books over and over, now I feel like I need to go read all the Vampire Chronicle books I missed. The thought of this is making my brain rot. I think part of this is the shock of realizing that I've nearly caught up with all the unread books I had laying around the house.
December 28, 2002
Vacation is a good thing, and I feel more rested and relaxed than I have in MONTHS. However, tonight, at least, I'm also bored out of my head. Can't think of a single thing I want to do by myself tonight. TV has gotten old. Reading has gotten temporarily old (I've finished four books since Christmas Eve). It's late enough that going out doesn't seem like an option, and I'm not tired enough to go to bed. Got a couple new movies from Netflix today, but not so interested in watching them at the moment. Grar. One thing I DO need to do though, is get away from the stupid Firefly message board for a bit. The stupidity of people is finally starting to get to me.
Hm. Maybe go out for a short drive tonight, go get some ice cream or something. Tomorrow, though. Tomorrow I'm going to do a lot of running around, both for fun and for the sake of being productive.
December 26, 2002
I'll wait here while y'all go faint from shock...
What Lord of the Rings Male and Mood Do You Desire?
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December 23, 2002
Well, I just finished making my mom's Christmas gift. Money's been insanely tight this year, so my Christmas shopping was pretty limited. Back before Thanksgiving, Mer suggested writing her a story. I thought, "No way. I can't just write on demand like that. Besides, she isn't interested in fantasy."
Then on Thanksgiving, a story idea hit me. So I wrote my mom a Christmas story, that really isn't fantasy at all. It ends with a miracle of sorts, but there are no faeries or elder gods running about -- unless Santa Claus counts as an elder god. (On a side note: damn Disney to HELL! I have not been able to spell Santa Claus correctly at all this year. It comes out "Santa Clause" instead.) I guess it's your pretty basic Christmas miracle story: poor single mom and daughter, mom worries how to give her daughter a Christmas with no money, and at the end Santa really does leave some presents. However, I set it in 1977 in my hometown. I was five in 1977, the daughter in the story is five, and she looks a lot like I did then. I was shooting for a sort of nostalgia trip to go along with the Christmasy goodness.
I thought it was going to be relentlessly cheesy and I'd hate it, but I actually like it. I read it through tonight before printing it off and it made me teary at the end. (Of course, I have been known to cry at Kleenex commercials, so this may not mean anything.) Here it sits on my desk, printed in pretty green ink on pretty Christmas stationery, bound together almost like a book. I feel very proud of it. I hope Mom likes it, but I'll be pleased if she actually just reads it...
December 20, 2002
It's amazing, I got over eight hours of uninterrupted sleep last night. No cats waking me up three or four times jumping and wrestling and shrieking on the bed. This has been going on all week. It's a new thing. I wake up to the cats wrestling and snarling--at least, I think it's Pooka doing the snarling--and I have to physically pry them apart. Rumpus has spent several nights locked in the bathroom. I dunno. I was so tired last night, they might have been right on top of me fighting and I wouldn't have noticed.
Yay, Friday. Yay, Firefly night. Boo, last episode of Firefly. To steal a quote, "I think I might cry."
Must finish Christmas shopping this weekend. Not much left to do, yay.
December 19, 2002
Tired, heading to bed soon even though it's not quite nine. Been dozing off and on all night. On the official Firefly boards tonight several cast members stopped by to post their goodbyes. Shooting officially stopped yesterday or stops tomorrow, depending on who you ask. The one thing that's been striking me over and over again is that several of the cast members clearly don't think the show's going to get picked up by UPN. Or they already know it won't be, and it just hasn't been announced yet. I think I've given up hope. See, THIS is why I don't get hooked on new TV shows. When Witchblade got cancelled, I was pretty much just, "Dude, that sucks." I feel downright bereft over Firefly. I think I'm gonna stick to reruns.
December 17, 2002
Last bit of schoolwork, yay!
I have to say, my paper's going pretty darn well. I mean, considering that I lazed about all day rather than work on it. Over half done in about two hours of writing, that's not bad at all. I'll probably even get to bed at a decent hour tonight.
This has, apparently, been the semester of feminism for yours truly. Seems like every major paper I've written has had feminism as its focus in some way--at least, the major papers I've had a choice of topics on. This paper? How John Gay mocks the role of women in the 18th century in The Beggar's Opera. It's true. He spends the whole play calling his female characters sluts and whores and hussies (which, admittedly, they all are), but in the end he's making a pretty strong statement criticizing how upper class women are viewed as well.
Yeah, I know. You don't care. That's where my brain is right now, though. Back to work!
And to further the geekiness...
...I just realized where I'll be a scant 24 hours from now: sitting in a darkened movie theatre, reunited with my secret boyfriend Aragorn after a year. Woot! Arwen-schmarwen. He says that's all just to keep the families happy.
The view from here
Well, being a newbie to the whole online fandom thing, I have to say it's been eyeopening. Here in the bowels (bowls?) of Firefly fandom, I'm reminded of everything I hated about the old BBS systems, and everything I loved about them.
Let me preface this by saying I'm spending WAY TOO MUCH TIME on the official Fox "Firefly" board, which, I'm discovering, is a pure fan board--i.e., if you post criticisms, prepare to get bashed. I kinda like it though. I'm just sensitive enough about the show's cancellation on Fox, that the last thing I want to read about is how Bobo over there thought the writing on episode whatever was substandard.
However, there are some things that are starting to drive me crazy. People not bothering to read old messages, for one. I swear, if I see one more thread started called "Fox canceled Firefly, oh no!" I'm going to scream. Thank you, you're not telling us anything we don't know. Then there's the new folks who come on and start telling everybody that we need to start a campaign to save the show. Er... there was one before the show was canceled. I understand being new to an online community, but common sense dictates lurking a while to find out what folks have been talking about. Basic netiquette there.
Jesus. I can't believe I just ranted about newbies. Y'all, I sent postcards for this show. I wrote FANFIC for this show. Just when I thought I couldn't get geekier...
Although, seriously, if you've watched "Firefly" even a little, take a minute to drop a postcard to UPN. If you go to the USPS website you can send one from your computer for free. Just note that you watch the show and you'd like to see UPN pick it up, with a little of your demographic info. Here's the address:
PRESIDENT, ENTERTAINMENT (CEO)
UNITED PARAMOUNT NETWORK
11800 WILSHIRE BLVD
LOS ANGELES CA 90025
Okay, now I'm really pitiful. But write anyway!
December 16, 2002
That's a touch unsettlin'
Whatever social graces I may lack, I can at least take comfort that I am not as bad as the guy sitting in front of me on the university shuttle this afternoon, who was picking his nose and muttering to himself. Another glorious mind, o'erthrown by finals, no doubt.
Speaking of which, mine are over. Five short pages of literary drivel lie between me and complete freedom from academia for three whole weeks! (Well, unless you count my job.) I survived the semester, sanity and GPA for the most part intact. Go me.
December 15, 2002
Okay... how long ago did Bon Jovi release "It's My Life"? Isn't it safe to say they've worn it out by now? Every time I see them perform somewhere, that's what they perform. Isn't it like three years old by now?
December 14, 2002
Well, you knew it was inevitable. I'm officially doomed. I broke down and wrote a tiny smidgen of Firefly fanfic. But it's not slash! It's not even romantic!
December 13, 2002
It's official as of last night, apparently. From Tim Minear's website:
Tim had the following to say, "We did get word tonight, Fox won't be ordering any new eps. That translates to 'cancelled.' We will finish shooting the ep now in production (I'm directing, in fact Joss came down to the set to break the bad news to cast and crew -- we wrapped early, but are back at it in the am), we'll finish post on all eps, and Fox says they're going to somehow air all eps."
"Firefly" is canceled. I'm officially in mourning. *sigh*
December 12, 2002
Is it Christmas yet?
I had a panicked realization today that time is slipping through my aching fingers. Tonight I have to finish studying for my philosophy test (test, not final exam, thank God), do my last bit of homework for my online class (SO glad to see that one ending), and try to squeeze in some reading for my lit final on Monday, or maybe get some work done on the paper that's due a week from yesterday. Tomorrow's pretty much shot, between work and my test. I'm headed out to Dawn and Jason's tomorrow night. Now, logic suggests I should cancel and stay home to study, but the rest of my brain is giving logic the finger on that one.
Saturday brings a lit study session in the morning, and who knows how long that will run. That leaves Saturday night and Sunday to prepare outlines for the essay questions on my lit final, and work on my paper. You'll notice some classes I'm not studying for (like, oh, math). I'm thinking about pushing my work schedule all to the end of the week next week, and taking Tuesday off to actually write the paper.
It's also worth mentioning that I haven't done a lick of Christmas shopping yet. Granted, there isn't much to do this year (largely because there isn't much to spend), but still. Gah. Brain exploding now. I swear, to hell with my good intentions to write furiously over Christmas break, if this keeps up, I'm spending the week between Christmas and New Year's asleep in front of my TV.
December 11, 2002
You knew it was inevitable that I'd find these...
And I have to disagree. After "War Stories", it's clear that Wash is NOT whipped.
December 10, 2002
Just checked my horoscope for today:
"You may come in contact with someone today and enjoy a highly emotional exchange of feelings with that person. You may even be falling in love! Be very attentive to your moods today and to everything going on inside of you, Lisa. They will be particularly strong, and they will help you to understand what is changing in you. Just be careful to distinguish your feelings from those of your (future?) partner."
December 08, 2002
Today was an excellent day all around. It was one of those days where I had a lot of fun, got a lot accomplished, just all good stuff. I defended Jane Austen's honor, saw a mathematical proof of the idea of tabula rasa, and even used John Locke to prove that God believes drunken boxing is okay--except for the drunken part.
December 07, 2002
God help me. I've turned into a raving fan girl. Watched "Firefly" tonight, and it absolutely kicked all the ass, then spent most of the rest of the night on the official message board. It's gone so far that I've posted questions to Joss Whedon (who does, in fact, participate on the boards).
*whimper* Next you know I'll be writing fan fiction. If I start writing slash, you all have permission to kill me.
December 04, 2002
Yay! Mer isn't afraid of my friend page!
01. Your name spelled backwards.
02. Where were your parents born?
Mom: Neon, Kentucky
Dad: Pikeville, Kentucky
03. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Episode 7 of "Firefly", completing my set of the episodes that have aired so far, plus the unaired pilot--did I mention I have a new obsession?
04. What's your favorite restaurant?
Paesano's, Ann Arbor, MI
Tio's, Ann Arbor, MI
05. What's your favorite bar/coffee house?
*sigh* Starbucks. I know, I know.
06. Last time you swam in a pool?
Hrm. Sometime in 2001.
07. Have you ever been in a school play?
I was a theatre geek in high school and college. Highlights: Ruth in Pirates of Penzance The Nurse in The Death of Bessie Smith, and Hippolyta in A Midsummer Night's Dream.
08. How many kids do you want?
Honestly? I'd be happy with just one.
09. Type of music you dislike most?
Whatever weird crap Borders ends up playing during Write Club. Sometimes it's good stuff, but usually it's women screaming and making weird noises.
10. Are you registered to vote?
11. Do you have cable?
12. How much time do you spend online?
Tons. Usually I'm connected online if I'm home. It's usually in the background while I go about my business, kinda the way some people use TV.
13. Ever prank call anybody?
My best friend and I went through a stint in middle school where we prank called madly. We used to harass this guy named Myron we picked out of the phone book, just because we thought the name was funny. Although, the best (worse?) was when we posed as a newly-opened local bank and convinced some poor woman that she'd won a lot of money as a promotion.
14. Ever get a parking ticket?
The first time I worked in downtown Ann Arbor, I also lived there. I wound up with so many parking tickets, the city towed my car once. Hasn't happened since.
15. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
No no no absolutely not. Not ever. I'm of the school of thought that recommends jumping out of planes only when they're on fire.
16. Furthest place you ever traveled.
17. Do you have a garden?
I actually had a flower patch this summer. It was lovely. My very first garden.
18. Do you play an instrument?
I sing. I used to marginally play piano and recorder, and a long long time ago, I made an attempt to learn the cornet.
19. Strangest place you've ever, well, you know?
In a field behind my ex-husband's grandparents' house, late at night.
20. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
Shower, usually morning.
21. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Fellowship of the Ring extended version.
22. Favorite pizza toppings?
Bacon, mushrooms, green pepper
23. Chips or popcorn?
Usually chips, but I won't scoff too hard at white cheddar popcorn.
24. Favorite comfort food?
Ice cream, but it's gotta be the good stuff, like Ben & Jerry's. Or if you mean food food, those Betty Crocker boxed scalloped potatoes. (Does that count as food food?)
25. Favorite anytime food?
Tuna salad sandwich.
26. Favorite alcoholic drinks?
Irish Fog: equal parts Bailey's, Jameson's, and Irish Mist over ice.
27. Favorite Juice?
28. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine?
Dinner? Wow, I can't quite remember. Probably when Mer, Julie, Eric and I went to a strange little seafood place called The Bib when we were on the Minions retreat. It's called the Bib because they make you wear one. It was an experience.
29. Favorite type chocolate bar?
30. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
19, on my wedding night. Scary, huh?
31. Longest relationship?
Five years, with my ex-husband. We were married for about three of that.
32. Have you ever won a trophy?
33. Are you a good cook?
When I bother, yes.
34. Biggest accomplishment?
Going back to school full-time. Finishing, when I finish, will be the biggest accomplishment of all.
35. Closest claim to fame?
I was interviewed on CNN once.
36. What don't you like about your looks?
Ugh, I'm trying to focus on what I DO like. Neatly sidestepping body issues here, I'd say... my moles.
37. Last book you read?
The last book I actually finished was Bridget Jones' Diary. Currently reading Mansfield Park by Jane Austen for class.
38. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
39. Ever throw up in public?
If a dorm bathroom counts, yes. No, I wasn't drunk, I was virus-ridden.
40. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
Wow. My first instinct was to say "true love", but Mer's answer really made me stop and think.
41. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No, not really. Insane crazy attraction, yes. Love, no.
42. Who do you look like?
In my family? My mom and dad. Otherwise? Apparently everybody. I've had a ton of people come to me and tell me I look just like someone they know.
43. Can exes be friends?
44. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?
45. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?
NO. In fact, my mom used to tape barrettes to my head so people would know I was a little girl. I didn't have a full head of hair until I was like 3 or 4.
46. What message is on your answering machine?
"Hi, you've reached ***-***-****, we're not home right now, but if you leave a message we'll get back to you." Sometimes I get really wild and mention my last name since a lot of people are convinced the Nelsons still live here.
47. What are the names of your pets?
Pooka and Rumpus, usually known as the "crazy-bad kitties".
48. Favorite season?
Well, normally I'd say winter, but I'm freezing my ass off right now.
49. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
Read curled up under the covers.
50. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
My ugly but warm chenille sweater and my gloves.
Did I mention that it's freaking FREEZING outside? I need to find a good way to stop the drafts from the doorwall in my living room. Yeesh.
December 03, 2002
I bet you save those for the really really hot chili...
Get me, I'm from the bowls of hell! I'm gonna get together with the plates and salad forks of hell and take over the universe!
December 02, 2002
Diving into the memepool again...
It's late and the cats are keeping me awake again, so...
Which books are you reading right now?
Mansfield Park, Jane Austen
The Hero and the Crown, Robin McKinley
Women Who Run with the Wolves, Clariisa Pinkola Estes, Ph.D.
When is your favourite time to read?
Whenever there's something else I ought to be doing. Also, lying in bed before going to sleep.
Where is your favourite place to read?
Curled up under the covers in bed, or while stuck on the bus to school.
What is the first book you remember reading?
The first honest-to-god chapter books I read were the Little House books by Laura Ingalls Wilder. If memory serves, the very first one I read was Farmer Boy, when I was about five years old, maybe six.
What is your favourite quotation?
From Wizard and Glass by Stephen King (spoiler-ish):
At the end of her life she was aware of heat but not pain. She had time to consider his eyes, eyes of that blue which is the color of the sky at first light of morning. She had time to think of him on the Drop, riding Rusher flat-out with his black hair flying back from his temples and his neckerchief rippling; to see him laughing with an ease and freedom he would never find again in the long life which stretched out for him beyond hers, and it was his laughter she took with her as she went out, fleeing the light and heat into the silky, consoling dark, calling to him over and over as she went, calling bird and bear and hare and fish.
Who is your favourite novelist?
Jane Austen is starting to move up on the list. Also there: Stephen King, Tad Williams, Jeanette Winterson, Sharon Kay Penman, Laurell K. Hamilton, Toni Morrison.
Which school text did you most enjoy?
Not counting textbooks, since they've been pretty dry. I read Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison for African American literature last year and was completely blown away.
What is the most difficult book you have ever read?
Again, not counting school work, probably One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. It was fascinating, and I'd like to read it again someday, but it was very slow going with lots of backtracking to reread bits and keep characters straight.
What is the most erotic book you have read?
I've only read it once, but it's stuck in my mind for years: Vox by Nicholson Baker, a novel that is essentially one long phone sex conversation, but not of the "oh baby oh baby" variety. The Story of O was also an eye opener.
What is your funniest book?
I dunno about funniest, but there were a couple of times during American Gods by Neil Gaiman when I laughed out loud.
It's three, actually: The Fionavar Tapestry trilogy by Guy Gavriel Kay. There were several occasions during those books when I had to put the book down and just sob. Beautiful, glorious, sad stuff.
What is your favourite children's book?
Little kids book: Where the Wild Things Are by Maurice Sendak. I used to have it completely memorized by virtue of reading it aloud every single day when I was teaching preschool. "The night Max wore his wolf suit and made mischief of one kind and another..."
Young adult books: Bridge to Terebithia and Jacob Have I Loved, both by Katherine Paterson.
What is your most overrated book?
I think Mercedes Lackey in general is vastly overrated. She does some interesting things with characterization, but her settings and plots and writing are all pretty bleh. Also, Robert Jordan. Pul-eeze!
Name your most underrated book.
I don't think Stephen King gets enough credit for being a "serious" author. Of course he's put out some absolute dreck. However, I think his Dark Tower books are true works of art.
Who is your favourite character?
Probably Jack Sawyer in The Talisman by Stephen King and Peter Straub. He stayed with me for years after I first read that book.
Which characters do you hate most?
Not remembering any serious character hatred right at the moment.
With which character do you most identify?
I remember relating a great deal with the main character in Jacob Have I Loved.
With which character would you most like to have an affair?
*blush* Well... probably just about any of the male characters in Laurell K. Hamilton's books, aside from the gross villains, of course.
Who would be your ideal literary dining companions?
Stephen King, Toni Morrison, Neil Gaiman
What is the worst screen adaptation?
The cinematic Dune. The recent Sci-Fi Channel miniseries wasn't horrid, but the mid-80s version sure was. Putrescent.
Name three desert island choices?
Heh. I read so many series and trilogies that this is tough. Aw hell. I'll count the series as one item. ;)
- A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, Betty Smith
- Dark Tower series, Stephen King (only, all of them please--even the ones not written yet)
- Memory, Sorrow, and Thorn series, Tad Williams
What is your favourite poem?
Oh this changes based on mood. "The Stolen Child" by W.B. Yeats, "The Hollow Men" by T.S. Eliot, or sometimes, yes, "The Wasteland" by T.S. Eliot. Jumping in and reading sections of "The Wasteland" is almost like a meditative process at times, trying to puzzle meaning out.
Which book changed your life?
I don't think any one single book has changed my life in an "Aha!" sort of sense, but rather all the books I've read have worked together to help form who I am. Yeah, looking over my favorite author list, it scares me too.
Which book would you make compulsory reading?
You can't really force reading tastes, so I don't think there's anything I'd force everybody to read.