June 10, 2004
Long time, no write
Yes, I know. I'm ashamed to say that, aside from a couple of Write Club meetings, I've not written a word that wasn't email or a journal entry since I started my new job. The good news, however, is that the job is going very well.
But still. Time to get back on the horse, I think. The time away was useful in one respect: it gave me some distance from all the pieces I was working on, particularly in revising. I had sort of an epiphany about my novel-writing, specifically about The Exile's Daughter. I don't think I know how to structure a scene. I tend to write from a roleplayer's POV, where if I skip over some time, I absolutely have to summarize what took place during that time before I can get to the good stuff. Most of the time, this leads to clunky scenes. At least, this is my theory. Now I'm almost eager to reread Exile, and maybe see if my theory holds any water.
But then, if I start rewriting it again, there's the whole worldbuilding mess to take care of. Hrm. Although, perhaps it's not as much of a mess as I think. A reread will answer that question too.
All in all, I've been a little frustrated at my lack of motivation, and have been experiencing some shadows of self-doubt--but I think the latter comes from a warped sense of time, an unrealistic expectation of how long it's going to take me to realize a lot of my writing goals. I've started to lose sight of writing as an enjoyable thing, something I love.
To try and remedy that, I'm trying to go back to writing a story longhand, the way I did back in middle school. I've got about 7 or 8 pages so far, and for now it's just known as the David story because of my ineptitude with titles. I feel like I'm reconnecting with something through this, which can only be a good thing.Posted by Lisa at June 10, 2004 08:46 AM