February 21, 2002
There's a reason the word
There's a reason the word count hasn't been updated in days. It's not a pretty one. Every night I go home, ready and eager to write, and then I sit down and stare at the screen. And stare. And write a few words. Then delete half of them. And stare some more until frustration takes over and I think, "Oh hell with it. I'm done for tonight." My deadline is in nineteen days. I still have approximately 40,000 words to do. That scares me to death, and that fear is what is making it nigh-impossible to write.
With NaNoWriMo, I could just blast out words, because I could tell myself that no one else was going to read it, so it didn't matter if it sucked. Well, here it matters if it sucks. I mean yeah, it can be edited, but still. Argh. I gotta quit psyching myself out.
